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11-10-2015 Journal–My Favorite Addictions!   Leave a comment

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I’m one of those boring people who feels the need to constantly examine my life.  I look at my past and judge myself, I look at my present and judge myself, and finally I look at my possible futures and judge that too. Also if I’m given the opportunity I’ll judge you as well. So not only am I a borderline addictive personality I’m a bit judgmental.

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I’ve always suspected I had issues with addiction but never tried to delve into the why’s and wherefores until now. My list of addictions is long and began back when I was just an newborn infant. Here’s my list from my formative years in no particular order of importance:

Breathing

Breasts

Breast milk

Diapers

I was able to finally work through those minor addictions without the assistance of an expensive rehab program. I was well on my way to puberty where my list began to grow and become more interesting. 

Breasts

Legs

Butts

Pornography

Sex

Puberty not only changed me physically but also intellectually. I understood at age thirteen that these addictions unlike my toddler list would likely become permanent.  And guess what? I was somewhat correct. I resigned myself to learning to live with my addictions and to make the best of them. It was a dirty job but I stepped up and made the required personality adjustments to deal with them.

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My teen years were interesting and a little frightening. My list again changed but was still manageable:

Sex

Breasts

Legs

French Blondes

Cigarettes

Beer

Pornography

College brought more changes and not all of them good. As the list increased so did my stress levels as you can plainly see:

Sex

Oral Sex

Brunettes

Blondes

Red Heads

Breasts

Beer

Whiskey

Marijuana

Wine

I learned a lot in those years but realized my life was in a rut so I dropped out of college and enlisted in the Army one step ahead of the draft board. This began another long, interesting, and scary adventure. Once more my list expanded a bit:

Sex

Oral sex

Oriental Women

Black Hair

Whiskey

Coffee

Cigarettes

Beer

Marijuana

Speed

Adrenaline

Wine

I returned home a few years later, much wiser and a much less addicted person. I was able to rid myself of many of my stupid addictions over the next two decades. Here are the final results after many years of really hard work:

Any Sex

Breasts

Coffee

Reading

Photography

Computers

Chocolate

Wine

Exercise

As you can see most of the exciting addictions in my life have slowly faded away.  They were fun while they lasted but were discarded when they became dangerous or harmful.  I’m now a much wiser and more boring person and I have to admit as I sit here quietly judging myself, I miss some of them a lot. 

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My list is certainly smaller but less dangerous and easily managed now. I expect this final list will remain with me forever. 

The only addiction that stayed with me from infancy to the present day are “Breasts”. There’s no rehab programs to help me deal with them and I’m pretty happy about that. So thanks again Mom for the one lifelong addiction I’ve enjoyed the most and will continue to enjoy until the lid slams shut. I’d love to see the 12 step program for that addiction.

I know one thing for sure, I’d never miss a meeting.

09-09-2015 Journal–More Personal Questions!   Leave a comment

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A short time ago I posted ten questions created to assist a person in examining their own motivations and ethics when confronted with difficult problems.  I was surprised by some of  the responses and even more so by the numerous requests for additional questions.  Never let it be said I don’t respond to my readers.

Here are ten more puzzlers to get you thinking along with my own answers.

1.   Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by five years to become extremely attractive?

a.  No, I’d prefer to have the women I know become more attractive. Then I’d give up the five years without hesitation.

2.   Have you ever considered suicide? If yes, what is so important to you that without it life would not be worth living?

a. Yes, my eyesight.

3.   If your friends and acquaintances were willing to bluntly and honestly tell you what they really thought of you, would you want them to?

a. Sure why not.  For the most part I know my faults but maybe I’d find out about one I wasn’t aware of. Either way I don’t really care.

4.   Do you believe in capital punishment?  Would you be willing to execute a man sentenced to death by the courts if you were selected by lot to do so and he would go free if you refused? Assume you know no details of the trial.

a. I do believe in capital punishment and I would execute a criminal who had been properly convicted through the courts. The alternative of freeing him is not an option.

5   If you went to a beach and it turned out to be a nude beach, would you stay and go swimming? Would you swim nude?

a.  Yes and Yes.

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6.   Do you find it so hard to say “no” that you regularly do favors you do not want to do? If so, why?

a. No I find it pretty easy to say no.

7.   Would you like to know the precise date of your death?

a. No.

8.   If by getting a 2 inch by 2 inch tattoo, you could save five lives and prevent a terrorist attack, would you do so? If you were allowed to select the location and design, where would you have it placed and what would the design be?

a. Yes I‘d get the tattoo.  A red crescent on my butt.

9.   On an airplane you are talking pleasantly to a stranger of average appearance. Unexpectedly, the person offers you $10,000.00 for one night of sex. Knowing that there is no danger and that payment is certain, would you accept the offer?

a. Of course . . . If the person were really attractive I might do it for $5,000.00. LOL

10.  Would you be willing to commit perjury for a friend? For example, might you testify that he was driving carefully when he hit a pedestrian even though he had been joking around and not paying attention.

a. No, he’s on his own.

Well there you have it.  Ten more questions to make you wonder about yourself and your significant other (assuming they are answering them with you).  Enjoy.

08-26-2015 Journal–Take a Good Look at Yourself!   2 comments

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The crappy weather continues here in Maine giving me an overabundance of reading time.   Recently I picked up a small book at a local church flea market for $.50 and as I began reading it I thought it would make an interesting discussion for the blog.

Half the fun of living your life is examining the hell out of it as you get older and hopefully smarter.  I know I’ve second guessed virtually every decision I’ve ever made in my life.  I always seem to have a better answer now than I had with the original decision.  Things I thought as a teenager and in my early twenties sound so stupid now it’s a little scary. 

This book’s all about difficult questions designed to make us think about ourselves and our decision making capabilities. There are no right or wrong answers but they will challenge your common sense and good=headedness.

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I’ll list 10 questions with my own answers below. If you’re interested after that then take a few minutes and jot down your own answers. I recommend that you do it together with your partner, significant other, or spouse. I’m sure that regardless of the answers they’re sure to spark a few interesting discussions about your differences.  Lets get started:

1.   If you could spend one year of your life in perfect happiness but afterward would remember nothing of the experience would you do so? If not, why not?

a. I think I’d pass on this one. If I couldn’t remember the happiness then it never really happened and what’s the point.

2.   If a new medicine were developed that would cure arthritis but cause a fatal reaction in 1% of those who took it, would you want it to be released to the public?

a. If I’ve done my math correctly that means that out of every million people treated, 10,000 would die.  That’s insanity and a big no from me.

3.   Would you accept $1,000,000 to leave the country and never set foot in it again?

a. That would be a big “Hell No”.

4.   Would you be willing to become extremely ugly physically if it meant you would live for 1,000 years at any physical age you chose?

a. No thank you. To me a thousand years of being terribly ugly would be worse than dying.

5.   If you could wake up tomorrow having gained one ability or quality, what would it be?

a.  I’d want the ability to speak and understand every language on earth.

6.   Would you accept twenty years of extraordinary happiness and fulfillment if it meant you would die at the end of the period?

a. No thank you.

7.   If the person you were engaged to marry had an accident and became a paraplegic, would you go through with the marriage or back out of it?

a. I must have loved that person very much or wouldn’t have wanted a marriage. It’s a commitment I’d honor completely.

8.   Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as your dinner guest?, as your close friend? , and as your lover?

a. Dinner Guest:  Any wounded veteran; Close Friend: Bill Gates; Lover: Rachael Hendrix.  The Close Friend and Lover could change at a moments notice because friends and lovers come and go.  The Dinner Guest would remain the same permanently.

9.   A good friend pulls off a well-conceived practical joke that plays on one of your foibles and makes you look ridiculous. How would you react?

a. I’d be a little embarrassed at first, laugh a little for a few minutes, and then begin planning some good old down-home REVENGE.

10. For $20,000 would you go for three months without washing, brushing your teeth, or using deodorant? Assume you could not explain your reasons to anyone.

a. No how, no way . . . . but I might reconsider it for $100,000.

BE AS TRUTHFUL AS POSSIBLE